Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Learn to Learn or Learn for Final

2 Days of no Class??...

hahaha seriously it's kinda bored like hell even though i have fun times for not doing any homework or WSE..
eh? wait a minute...i've got tons of tests next week...ARRRGGGHHHH~~ e taihen desuyooo
nah, don't want to bother that thing for now.

Just woke up, not even having my morning shower yet, a conversation with my home mate bothers me for a while. But, it's not really something that zapped my head, coz i think this kind of conversation is a long-time-always-been-made by people like us; students, lecturers and the one that really concern--->The Ministry.

"are we 

come on guys, are we really that stupid that we just read the books for final terms? Yes maybe we ARE coz we were born in Malaysia that maximizing the exam-oriented function, let say starting our kindergarten? Hahaha, you notice that right? But, ever you wonder that everything that we learn, even though we only focusing it for FINAL, getting flying color results, good grade for any level you take, don't you think that we actually LEARN from all of that?

Eager to learn with all those book,
as behind is the need for achievement on a piece of paper.

Try to get this.
Don't you ever think that you can read?
Don't you ever think that you can spell?
Don't you ever think that you can write?
Don't you ever think that you can calculate?
Don't you ever think that you can remember things you did learn before?

Coincidence? NO
GOD had created us with a powerful brain. And though we used it just for a little, like the need for examination, likewise we are actually remembering it and thus we can actually adapt it.

  • One thing that we people always tend to feel like we are study for examination, tests and such is because maybe we toooooooooooooooooooooooo much focus for the exam, thats first. 
  • Second is that, because we are beginning with new study life, apart from the subjects taken before, so thats why we feel like didn't learn anything before. 
  • And lastly, most of us were taking new major study, and the things you have studied before isn't for you to explore, or reuse back mostly.

We have the power, We tend to be modest with the knowledge
Hahhaa, so don't freak out if people say you're bad, or you are no genius or WSE. Try make them believe that you actually know everything. And just be happy with what you are. 

~but, nevertheless don't ever try thinking that without study you can manage yourself having good results. That may i call u DUMB..hahaha~

to Wan Haris Wan Mulia,
thankx for giving the piece of idea...
hahaha.. smile for your Smartness >.<

Who's To Say

hello bloggers..
sorry coz i dont have time for updating my blog.
and its been a while as the internet connection at my campus are DAMN slow ~.~

well, just forget bout it.
in this opportunity ive stumble upon, i like to introduce to one of the song that i think it suggest to all of us not to bother what others said..
and its a song by a pianist named Vanessa Carlton. I'm pretty sure you guys know her, talented hand dancing on the piano keys with superb beautiful voice, she's one given the talent to surpass others.
and with this song, i hope those feeling down can cheer up with the song >.<

the lyrics is with the vid. and this vid don't have any official videos made. Hmm thinking of doing one with the song...hahaha

to Marsh Micky Yoochun
and others that have heard...
peace, believing, outstanding

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Give. Is It Your Ultimate Purpose?

Narayanan Krishnan
Yes a name of nobody does not know. And honestly, if I do say about him, this is how we react to the name,

"..owh, he's an Indian.."
or maybe like
"..nah, I don't know.."
"..who's he..".

Uhum, if he isn't broadcasted, or even known by a person to what that he did, he will definitely just a mere human (as how I do know him). But being somebody has made him sits on an upper level than ordinary humans. And the thing that touches me the most bout him
"Sacrificing to Give"

Not all have this as their "Ultimate Purpose of Life". 
Where anything stands beyond others reach, which differs from YOU that completely filled with everything in life. 

In the circumstances and conflict of life, there boundaries that takes us to be somebody or nobody. But, that is all psychological thinking of human itself on leveling people for the desiring their level of satisfaction, power and stands. Yet, it is we the humans, are all the same. Characteristic is one other thing, but for those that have something more than those aren't (frankly speaking in terms of physiologically) yeah they will physically look lesser and that look projected as the downgrading of their social life itself, thus creating other minds to think that he/she is something "LOW CLASS".

He's a man of an average thinking. But for me, its not the thinking that bothers me, it is how he act to what he think. So that should motivate you guys (and so do for me). And, surprisingly I do have an opinion of the action he done that makes me wanted more of doing it

"What is the ultimate purpose of life?
It's to give.
Start giving.
See the joy of giving."

i maybe,
and hopefully,
with those passion,
breakthrough my norms,
as he does..
and Giving,
is one of my,

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Junko Furuta

Hai again..


Its been a long time I did not post anything here in my precious blog. Well, it has been such an extreme days and months for me cause I got a lot to face and I clearly don't have time to post. (its not that i DON'T have any idea at all, but its just that i think its best for posting something interesting rite?). So to make something clearly interesting (maybe I'm the one that feel that) and so to get to your attention for the blog, so here is something I think will catch your eyes.

Ever know this pretty, cute face with dense hair?
Yup, maybe some of the Facebookers know this girl already aren't you? So the title of the post shows it all isn't it? Yeah, her name is Junko Furuta, a Japanese-Asian looking face which IS a Japanese..heheh3. So, what is so special bout her that make me wanting to post her for my so-called homecoming blogging?

I actually stumbled upon this story just recently (today I suppose emphasized) and it was posted to a wall of my friend (hey, I'm a Facebookers too, but don't say I looking into my friend's wall like I'm stalking him, duhh~~).


There's a lot of psycho guys out there tend to make suffer to things, and so does to human. (hey, got no job/better things to do eh?) My gaadd. It's freaking and at the same time rage me out for those kind of act which I believe is a TOTAL ABSURD. 44 days of torturing, non-stop story of forces, hurting, raging are just make you wept. And for us to have the kind of peace-wanting mind (like I do) is as much as we want justice to prevail upon those psych, this is what it should be done. THE RIGHTS OF JUSTICE.

story goes-:
DAY 1: November 22, 1988: Kidnapped
Kept captive in house, and posed as one of boy’s girlfriend
Raped (over 400 times in total)
Forced to call her parents and tell them she had run away
Starved and malnutritioned
Fed cockroaches to eat and urine to drink
Forced to masturbate
Forced to strip in front of others
Burned with cigarette lighters
Foreign objects inserted into her vagina/anus

DAY 11: December 1, 1988: Severely beat up countless times
Face held against concrete ground and jumped on
Hands tied to ceiling and body used as a punching bag
Nose filled with so much blood that she can only breath through her mouth
Dumbbells dropped onto her stomach
Vomited when tried to drink water (her stomach couldn’t accept it)
Tried to escape and punished by cigarette burning on arms
Flammable liquid poured on her feet and legs, then lit on fire
Bottle inserted into her anus, causing injury

DAY 20: December10, 1989: Unable to walk properly due to severe leg burns
Beat with bamboo sticks
Fireworks inserted into anus and lit
Hands smashed by weights and fingernails cracked
Beaten with golf club
Cigarettes inserted into vagina
Beaten with iron rods repeatedly
Winter; forced outside to sleep in balcony
Skewers of grilled chicken inserted into her vagina and anus, causing bleeding

DAY 30: Hot wax dripped onto face
Eyelids burned by cigarette lighter
Stabbed with sewing needles in chest area
Left nipple cut and destroyed with pliers
Hot light bulb inserted into her vagina
Heavy bleeding from vagina due to scissors insertion
Unable to urinate properly
Injuries were so severe that it took over an hour for her to crawl downstairs and use the bathroom
Eardrums severely damaged
Extreme reduced brain size

DAY 40: Begged her torturers to “kill her and get it over with”

January 1, 1989: Junko greets the New Years Day alone
Body mutilated
Unable to move from the ground

DAY 44: January 4, 1989: The four boys beat her mutilated body with an iron barbell, using a loss at the game of Mah-jongg as a pretext. She is profusely bleeding from her mouth and nose. They put a candle’s flame to her face and eyes.

Then, lighter fluid was poured onto her legs, arms, face and stomach, and then lit on fire. This final torture lasted for a time of two hours.

Junko Furuta died later that day, in pain and alone. Nothing could compare 44 days of suffering she had to go through.

When her mother heard the news and details of what had happened to her daughter, she fainted. She had to undergo a psychiatric outpatient treatment . Imagine her endless pain.

Her killers are now free men. Justice was never served, not even after 20 years.
They deserve a punishment much greater than they had put upon Furuta, for putting an innocent girl through the most unbearable suffering.

This story from 1989 is true. Please spread her story around. Everyone should know about the existence of Junko Furuta’s unimaginable and incomprehensible suffering, and this is why this group has been made.

Invite your friends. Never let her story be forgotten. If this story changes the life of at least one person then it has been worth it.

Rest In Eternal Peace,
Junko Furuta

I may not be the saviour, 
but I am following the steps of becoming the saviour. 
Do I have done the sacrifice that i should done? 
I know its not enough, 
intended of
not superficially
but logical reality actions.


Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Chances and Possibilities

What is chances??
  What is Possibilities??
     Are they the same??
        Or maybe somehow related to each other??

Well, i might feel like both of it connects in anyway and anyhow. I believe that in this world, you are not alone, but you are bounded to the things you may see with naked eyes or so to those unseen. The world is actually the larger part of NETWORKING, isn't it??

Chances in my words of understanding, i would say that it shows the opportunity of a person towards something or some event, or maybe the needs they wanted which is now available for them to just grabbed to be owned. Whereas Possibilities is the degree or countability of how far or level you may have or reach on to something you eager on.

Speaking on this two subjects really implies MUCH in every life of a person. With DEEPER context and implementation of the person itself towards the subject, the possibilities can be adjusted, and so does how you will see frankly and even so thoroughly to the chances.

Everybody in this planets are given a piece of chances in their life. It won't be a matter of where you are, position you are in, in which community you belong, God always knows to give everyone a chance. As how much you can grab the chance, even if you had the chance to have the least piece, it brings miraculous and magic to all.

So don't ever waste any of the chance you may get, the one you see. Eager to grab it, and you will glitters a smile upon your, tomorrow and the future ahead you.

Saturday, May 28, 2011


try dis...power 8 bit...power lego..hahaha

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Mother's Love is EVERLASTING

She is the only...
When to say about healer,
When to say about nurture,
When to say about satisfying,
When to say about love,
When to say about warmth...
You will be my always..and always my MOTHER <3

Monday, May 02, 2011


Everyone sure loves to be welcomed in every circumstances or every scenario they might get into. For the joy we would be crazily overwhelmed its happiness, the sadness we would erase for the sake of cheering and supporting, and to be as much closer in bond-ship as we would thought it might be. Yeah, I'm sure I am a pretty dumber when I said that 'for my instance happiness is by seeing others felt happy first'. It SUCKS right?, and I'm sucks.

I don't know why should I prioritize others rather than myself. As how I got wounded from a fall, it's just me who is there by my side. But yeah, for all things I might done, there is only a small glimpse of self-centered or I can say, I would do for others for the sake of myself. It's hard cos whenever or whatever, I live for others. It's weird huh?

Satisfying soul creates glittering emotions.

I try for once to be in the mood of being self-prioritize, think majorly of myself and I, for future and past is all about me. But it wasn't much to my self satisfaction. Even I couldn't have for at most 10% if every thing that I ever wanted is all in front of me. My 'everything' is not meant for me, but it is meant for others which repels back to me. So I don't get it directly as how I should be getting.

But, for everything I do for others, it really gives me in return a lot. Knowing people, blend with people, seeing people, with all sorts of relationship I have. And the major thing that at most I grasp is, the feeling of satisfaction, which I hope the most when the one I'm connected with really satisfy for what I have done. That will give me the blessings and happiness of the world. And I JUST LOVE THE FEELING.

its not me to decide
but I just love to give
with no expectation to be given back
but, a zillion thanks
for anyone that had merged into my life
for you had indirectly
or so directly
give me the chance
to have the things I REALLY wanted


Wednesday, April 27, 2011

I am who I am

we know that we are just a human..
with no much or lesser of knowing..
with no powers of returning back..
to set back things that have done..
to change anything that have been missed..
bu there is still things which remains..

Best to glance back..
best to hike the memories..
best to bless the dreams..
best to feel the past..
best to have things we had..

i'm not good with everything..
and i maybe a foolish person you may know..
one thought i like to preserve..
and serve to all..
is with what i know..
the best to all..

i might do in any way i think..
but it might not sync with yours..
i'm humbly try..
but not much i could do..
i take those bad words..
with no grudge at all..
i take the shamefulness..
with nothing to fear of..
i take all those freaking eyes..
with my eyes wide open..

i might say..
i'm stronger when i know..
that would be the best..
i bear in mind..
with all strength i have..
with all powers He gave..
with all emotion that is strong...

its me okay..i am who i am

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

SIlent thru the Soothing Waves

Again but the worst, people are now being threatened with the rage of the mother nature, where the "give and take" is not equivalent from the generousity of the nature had given to human mankind. We had too much been given warnings and signs of what our stupidity and arrogant with the 'money-maker mind'.

12th March of year 2011..
It's an 'honour' for the nature to show back what they are capable of, for humans that live stepping everyday on them. As what they have been supportive, supplying and protecting us is like being trashed again by monstrous humans. A bigger magnitude of 8.9 in Richter scale is most 'wondrous-explosive' history to be claimed after the big hit in 1940.

Today, as we start grieving the loss one, the goner etc, we really need to be more calculative for any undertakings and actions that we are going to pursue. Though it might think and seen like it is all about yourself, but we are bounded to everything, including those that can't be seen with our own naked eyes. For every steps that we are ongoing to take, there is something that will be effected to it. So we do think it is for human and mankind, the benefits that we are going to have by doing it, it might seems to be seen as simple as that, but it has more. It's not for the sake of mankind. It's the sake for mankind and all that are connected with us; earth, air, water, sound, colours, heat, anything and everything one's mind can think of. For how much and how many does God have given us things for us survive in His world, we need to be thankful and not being arrogant, acting like the world is yours.

We can't live forever, so do things on earth, in the sky and in between them, it won't last long. We know it's hard to make it, but easier for destroy it. But things will get better if we do preserve and conserve them the way it suppose to be. It's simple isn't it?? But still people do have brains but they JUST have brains, never use it. Yeah, to think back again, actions speaks louder than words, but with some people that are brainy, message by words would have a lot of effect to them. Start thinking again guys, for the commandment you have made before you enter living in the earth. For peace you always wanted to be real. For the sake of your beloved ones, and for whatever dreams and happiness that you longing to rejoice. When the path is right, chances for all the things are much brighter, and you may even grasp it longer than you know it.

~everyone said that~
cheers and daaa....

Monday, February 21, 2011

8 Dances HONESTLY!!

WOW...can't ever imagined that all those hard work and sweats, and aches and painful, tiredness etc had paid us really well on that night. An event which I personally think that it starts and ends, thruout the event period itself was SUPERB!! >.<

MAG or Malam Alunan Gemersik held for the fifth times (5th season) really blows the day. Never thought that making an event on Sunday is sure to attract more people than the usually been thinking and have been done. Yeah...I know that this event is the BIGGEST organization and AWESOME hit held by KEB or Kelab Estetika Budaya  UiTM Pahang. Everyone sure loves to go and watch any reality show like this huh...Do you??

MAG is an event for people to show their talented skill with superb voice competing each other for title 'THE WINNER'. Same goes to any reality show, just that this competition needs the singer to perform 2 songs; one in the genre of Etnik Kreatif and the other one goes with the theme of the season. For this semester, we decided to put POP as the main theme song. Yet the element intended by us, the dancers to show our performance is the festivals or pesta.

I was happy thruout the event itself as this will be going to be my last show (hopefully not) for this semester..."Hey, I'm almost done with the diploma, need to have some brak a little bit, old enough to be think of.."hehe. Giving the best that i could no matter how painful my leg was during the day, hoouuu~ it really gives me some nerves to think back that I couldn't really perform well, much in what do I expected. Though, fun I was kept thinking. I want it to be my best review of my past life. goes the list of my dance that nite i (we the KEBians performe <3)
  • Overture 1Malaysia
  • Overture 1Malaysia
  • Overture 1Malaysia
  • Joget for Umpan Jinak Di Air Tenang
  • Ceracap Inai (girls only)
  • Zapin Pekajang (tremendoulsy like hell, but its nice to dance)
  • Zapin Putar Alam and Zapin Tanjung Labuh for Pantun Budi
  • Tiba TIba Tembok (pesta Festival)

A lot huh?
you know what it means aite??

It's worth to do, it's worth the pain, and it's worth with what we have shown.
I'm Glad, We're relieved, and All are happy.

~that's just it~
~hope to cover more~
~ever stay in touch yo~

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Have Passed the Public Speaking Stage Freight

It is an enormous relief when I do say "I end my speech".
Those nervous feeling, anxiety, uncomfortable, and lots of uneasiness have shaked down from my entire body.
(~kasi goyang sikit~)

Is best to end something when you are really prepared to do it. Well, I must say I am not good with presentation, presenting is my worst enemy ever although if I need to prepared it in Bahasa. I think the 'azali'  word really suits me well. Though I have been on stage for quite a times, I never had the guts to outstand in front of the public. Even if my name was called up to take prizes for any competitions I entered, I might fell the beating of my heart like try to explode out from my chest.

Now there is 'shirt-fright'

Owh, to be clear of what I am doing actually, just now all my friends in the group need to present their own slides and speech according to what company they have chosen. I am in the group with three girls namely Thania, Ani and also Mek aka Yasmin. We have chosen Ajinomoto (M) Berhad to be the presented.

"now already pass our presentation,listen to others lah~ make me very sleepy-lah!!!!!!!!
now time to goyang bro!!!!!"
(quotation made by Ani interrupting my "luahan perasaan" here)

Hey, I'm done here...
The futon is calling me,
The pillow is drifting towards me..
Yes, you know what it is

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Let Red Be The Blessing

Hey, the red light will go brighter starting tomorrow onwards. Being blessed with the protective and prosperous colours of the red, Chinese all over the world will entirely beginning their new year journey for the festive known by all.

It feels merry to have multiracial people belong just near you, in a country like this, Malaysia. Where every festivals occurs here, you can get access to holidays even though we                                                                         (the Malays, Indians and Natives of Malaysia for Chinese New Year) are not quite practically celebrating it. And must say that, when this day come, oranges will strike to all malls and groceries to be purchased. Well, I love so much the sour-sweet mixed of the taste of the oranges, and this festive are sure the best to have this fruits eaten and pleasured.

how does the story of this festive begins, or how do the colors and rituals being proposed into this festival??
I actually dunno the exact terms or stories does every symbolism in this festival means. But i do remember a cartoon story aired during my childhood time, and it was aired on TV2 with English dubbing. I still have this vague memories on the meaning of the red.

Well, they say red means very much for their life. Especially nowadays, the Chinese sees the red color as the color of fortune and prosperity. Well, in that story, it very much signifies the meaning of todays people, but one thing for sure that why the red color is being chosen is because the color is the protective coat for them against ghost and spirits. When the ghost sees the red color, it gives an alarm color so they won't be harming the family, or they may get harm.

Oh, for the true storyline, actually the red has been chosen as the primary color for Chinese New Year, actually the ghost that i mention is actually a beast know as NIAN. You all notice right that Chinese will prepare food at their mini prayer place, or some put in front of their door?? So, basically that is the substitute offering to Nian, which before this they eat kids. But, one day suddenly when Nian try to eat a boy that wears a red color shirt, that beast stops and flee from the village it attacks. So from that onwards, people use red to be their protective shield from the beast. They also include some firecrackers as an enhancement to scare away the Nian forever.

Nice isn't it??
For those who didn't celebrate, maybe we all should celebrate their season by open and bring some joy to the air throughout the Lunar Year.

to Malaysian Chinese
and not forgetting
Chinese all over the WORLD

Friday, January 21, 2011


We always pray to God seeking for his forgiveness and ask for Him to bless us with greatness, guide us to His Only truth and be strong in facing His plan of day by day challenge. For every thing that we need, we always try to have it in any way we could try, by any means that are necessary. It is like a worth-taking plan that everyone has gripped onto since ages.

As how far or how much does one really believing what he or she has hold on to, having faith to their God,  is very much the same as how we should create such believe in ourselves. Believing in anything that you really are possible of doing it, and so does the same thing for you to believe that not all things you can perfectly do it. Thinking wise in every action you want to do helps a lot in how will be the outcome, either great or not good at all are really dependable to what you have in your mind, the power of your BELIEVE.

There times in your life that, at that moment you may not have the skills of doing it. It is so much call the new things. But it won't be the same if you have the same experienced again and again, being practiced to the same problem. But nowadays people tend to say "Practice is Perfect, But Nobody is Perfect, so Why Practice??", a multi-mixed quotation made by those jokers and some that have agreed with this, those which have very narrow-minded person to be say. Honestly, there is nothing perfect in this world. The accordance of the world is being balanced by the good and the bad, in any actions, in anything, in any way.

But the question is, by the imperfectness of a person and the imperfection of the world, does it be a compulsory for us to downgrade ourselves as to the never change destiny of the world?? Anything which is perfect is beyond our words actually. And thus it is known that perfect is significant to something that is abstract, the way it is, or so the definition to it by all. But people do know how to be one of the perfectionist, Trying to make something considerably perfect. They aim to be good for everything and so in aiming to be the best of all. This how should the mentality of all people in earth should possess, a high-class mentality.

Even not all can success for every single thing in their life. But, we can say everyone really have something that are consistent or moderate for their skills they have. Coz they believing for whatever they do comes with the knowledge and experience and practice they done to things they are not good of, and believing they can do it. So it just starts with a recall media of your brain, to be controlled with the faith of your heart and self-believing, and lastly to be idealized and make it reality by putting the effort with all your wits.


Sunday, January 09, 2011

To Love and To Be Loved

Love is priceless. Where it can't be set with a price, having an auction for it or try to make it. It is one of the humblest emotion a human have throughout their life. No force could create such a masterpiece. Though nowadays people tend to see love is something to be joked around, making fool to others, and redundantly abandoned it for something called 'real love'.

Couples define love with how much they wanted for their partner have in their list. Beautiful body figure, trendy and up-to-date (for girls) or so for men. Handsome, discipline, strong etc. But in every fine search throughout the world, it can be estimated around 1 out of billions of human here in Earth will have a partner completely with what they want to, I assume. Because the one that I have looked through is that those couples are mostly not a part of their list. But how does they be sticked like glue to their partners? That's when all say the love is Magic, and love is blind. Perception of love didn't define and resisted by age, race, country, places, and also religion, is it??

We mostly heard some of us had bought their love, where they shows their love are totally cheap and can be bought, the equivalent (love = money). That is a total gruesome for me, as they can't see how miracle to have a love, endless love, pure love. Talking about the desperation they are to try having love that is created and tied with money. When every breath they take in never have the feeling of sensation and love, where just lust and power tangled in every single doings by the tie of that fake love.

We love to love and be loved. It is a two-way communication where both partners have their benefits. Being love and giving love should be more than just a statement of "I can't stop thinking of you" or maybe like this "You are the one in my life, and I won't live my life if you weren't there for me" etc. We do know loud and clear that action speaks louder than words. Showing your love is perfecting how much your words meant. It won't be necessary for us to give things as a way for you to really show your deepest love to her/him, but the important is how can you make your future partner be warmth and dependable on you every time he/she think of you, or your arms around your partner.

Love is an enormous thing, with whom or what you are trying to make the connection with, it is love with different situation but with one same perception. As how you love your parents, it is the same love of perception but have a bit different definition when you are in love with someone to be your life partner. Same goes with someone that have something that holds sentimental value, it is also a creation of love to someone, but the resemblance are hold by a thing in the sake of past memories.

Let the Love Spreads,
Flows with the wind that blows,
And all of the air Fills in Just,
The Magic and Miracles,

Quotation #3

The Chances You Get is The Chances You See

Friday, January 07, 2011

Seeing your Chances

Big chances you will get as far as your eyes can see. As how much you wanna make all things grabbed in your hands, in your life, with full-hearted and enormous dedication and hard works you put on it to just make it become the truest thing, the reality that had put behind all the 'just dreams and fantasies'.

For us that love making resolution in their life, you know that every time you're making some evolution to your life, it is either you just having fun by settling down with that hopes or you really want to have it become true. Because oneself are the only one that can make anything come true, even when you want to grab something to eat too, you have to ask and force yourself, to work for it.

Making things come true is really a fortune for all of human beings, and it didn't biased to those with more money, or got more luck, but the only thing that really counts is how you put yourself with a lot of hard work to make it true. There's nothing as waiting for something to fall in front of you (though some of us are really lucky to be in that situation), but by most of the time in your life, you are the only one that know what to have and what to do.

In whatever or wherever you are in this world, you know that chances is always be by your side, though you always feel like your at the end of the damnation of your life. Being and thinking positively that really effecting how you think with your chances, and emotionally to try to have it with all your wits. Knowing the consequences is a part of the challenge, and we know really well that nothing is perfect. Nothing is too good until you know what the bads are, aite??

Supposedly we do think on this, but we like to put it at the back of our thinking. We know that we always can do it, but we just love to hold back for something we called scare, and low enthusiasm, lack of self confident and blaming self for everything we actually could, but we won't admit it. Though we are the one that knows really well about ourselves, but not all things we know really well..